sunday

 I really enjoyed my Sunday walk -- about 4.5 miles on this warm, sunny, mellow afternoon. If it's not going to rain, it might as well be lovely. The past week has been unseasonably warm and there hasn't been much wind. I can feel the days getting longer. 

I took Friday off so I could have lunch in San Carlos with Kelly, Vicki, and Niu. We had a lovely time sitting outside (with an umbrella for shade). After lunch, I took a walk with Scott around the sloughs and channels near his place. Yesterday was games night at Chalon and Greg's. (Always a bit of a mixed experience -- part of me always feels like a seventh wheel . . . ). 

I realized a little while back that I have been in a haze -- I forgot to pay one of mom's bills and accidentally double-paid another one, for example. I've been feeling freakishly alone (I have no kids and I've been mostly single for decades, and sometimes it's a drag to be pretty much the only single person I know, yadayada). I've also been feeling a bit stuck, and my parents' situation makes it easy for me to dwell on the not-all-that-distant prospect of old age. You know, the usual. 

But on Friday I was talking to Scott about his current writing project, and he nudged me into thinking about doing some sort of creative work (or dabbling, at least), in part so that I might get to feeling less funk-y. I wrote a couple of paragraphs yesterday, and played the piano for the first time in many months. Short bursts of creative activity. Baby steps.